#Anxiety

Jan 21st

Jan 14th was scan morning and I know I was anxious cause I didn’t do any talking on our way to the radiologist. Steve said he knows when I am anxious because I start babbling or I get very very quiet. This day was quiet as I went into the scan.

Millie wished me best wishes before going into scan – if she was allowed to come we would bring her with us, she is such a source of comfort.

Scan came back that the cancer is stable. This is good news cause the cancer has shrunk a little and there is no evidence of spreading. We will continue chemo treatment but start to look into Plan B and see what clinical trials are available to me and I would be accepted by. Our scans and reports have been sent out to Scottsdale and Reza is on his way to San Fran for a conference and any new findings he will learn about. Saying prayers that there are new opportunities for me and where I am in my journey.

I had a wonderful visit last week and shopping/buying spree with Marinda. It was so fun playing dress up with Worth New York! I even found a few things for when I go back to work hopefully this qtr!

Since last blog I have had some rough days and have had my peeps around to help. Dawn and Cari worked from “our drop in” space a few days after Chemo! It was so comforting having them here watching over me. This picture makes my heart swell!

This is my other caretaker – she is thinking we hid a treat in her toy “flea” so she is digging in fleas head to find it. Unfortunately it wasn’t there but we gave her a treat later in the day – remember my post on food issues well they are totally real – I watch Millie’s snack intake so she doesn’t get too chubby. It is an issue when you are monitoring your dog’s snack intake!

Chemo treatment on January 17th has thus far had limited side effects and I have been resting and taking it easy. My chemo had to be moved from the 15th to the 17th because my counts were too low and I was not strong enough to battle any infections. My counts came up on the 17th but still need to be mindful of being around those with a cold, flu, and crowds. I have been watching my temperature and I have been taking Tylenol to help strengthen my autoimmune system. The stronger it gets the better I feel and the side effects are less and less.

I am sorry there hasn’t been too much humor in these posts but I will work to improve that in the future! In closing out this post the best part of this cancer is I can eat whatever I want and yep there I go with food comments again! Every night I get ice cream and my favorite food this week is a turkey sandwich or a grilled cheese sandwich with tomato and rice soup.

Thank you for all your well wishes and ask that you continue your prayers and well wishes so my cancer continues to shrink and there is still no spreading. As my friends say…we have lots to do so I need to get well soon!