Around the Corner

May 26th

With crossed fingers I think I can say we have turned the corner! After feeling like I was walking through each day for the last seven weeks with the worlds biggest hangover, I am finally feeling the Missy raising its head! I have never been so happy to see her! Each day I am feeling a little bit stronger and my brain fog has lifted allowing me to be more engaging.

Each day I try to accomplish two tasks such as reading, gardening, jewelry design, out to lunch with friends, shopping…the things that make life so enjoyable. Not to mention laundry and house straightening (not very good at this one) as I am feeling up for it I am trying to take a load off of Steve.

Speaking of Steve, I couldn’t do this without him – he has been my rock, my conscience, my cheerleader and my coach. Everyday I think how lucky I am but I also find myself sad that he is having to take on this burden as well. I know it is tough to watch a loved one suffer especially in the ninth year of marriage – by the time this is all said and done we will spend all of our ninth year of marriage battling this beast! But with all that said I would never want anyone else by my side and fighting as hard for me as I am for myself! You are my saving grace and I love you forever and always.

This week brought me another hair cut and I absolutely love it – Claire you may forget to sign your cards but you nailed the new hair cut!A little edgy don’t you think!

The victory garden is doing amazing and tonight’s dinner of calzone’s contain basil, kale and green pepper from the garden!

So some humor – I went to see a palliative care doctor last week and she wanted to do a pancreas digestive enzyme sufficiency test! Well yes that meant I would need to provide them a sample of my poop – well needless to say after weeks of pooping regularly each day, this day I could not poop on demand… seriously I had to take it home and try there! Once I was successful I needed to bring it back. They told me I could drop at any lab – so I went to the one I knew and they had closed the facility, the next one I went to the same thing, finally I found one after driving my poop around for two hours – then they asked me if I had frozen it…what no one told me to freeze it and I told the guy in no uncertain terms that this poop was going to have to do cause I wasn’t taking it for another ride!

So all in all things are looking up as I continue to look up and remember that no one told you this was going to be a cake walk – but never did I imagine the journey that has gotten me to this point! We will find out about our next chemo and radiation most likely next week when we see the oncologist so fingers crossed my weight maintains or goes up! I know – you never thought you would hear that come out of my mouth! Thanks for your continuous prayers and support, they are what keeps me going! I am so blessed to have my tribe of warriors on my side!