Faith

May 8th

During this journey no matter how independent you might be there is no way you can handle this on your own – trust me I have tried. You also are not in control – again I have tried and continue to try and take control. It takes a village and a whole lot of faith to get through this journey.

Going into my surgery I was sure I would be up and moving and back to work by mid May…why not I always hit my goals and I do whatever it takes to get there. Unfortunately I can’t use the same tactics to get to this goal as everything else in my life, cause I am not in control of this outcome and if I would just let God do what he needs to do it might be a little easier! As someone said recently, you are so used to manhandling whatever you have to in order to reach the goal – this time you actually have to sit back and hand it over to someone else, that being God, and let him do his miraculous work as he has your best interest at heart!

Going into this journey I had very strong faith, and I will not lie, there have been times where I have questioned that faith and just wanted to throw in the towel – a lot of good that did for me, it just bummed me out and left me down in the dumps. So I have begun to just do what I can and not expect miraculous results every minute of everyday – patience is a trait that God will make you realize is a gift if you open your arms and accept it!

So with God on my side I feel like I just might see the other side of this journey, unfortunately it may not be within my timeframe but it will be the right timeframe!