Ugh I Hate This!

Jan 27th

I am so over this – seriously over feeling cruddy and always tired. This seriously is a complete bore and I am just sick and tired of being sick and tired. BUT if this is what I have to do to eradicate Lucifer then so be it – I will do it and I will smile and embrace all of it. Ok so maybe I am not smiling much at home but I do try to make our home a happy place even if I spend most of the time wrapped in a blanket with a heating pad.

So this week I had another funny occurrence – yet again in the shower. As I have shared I have not lost any of my hair! Well that isn’t actually true – I haven’t lost any hair on my HEAD nor my eyebrows, but while showering I realized that I had not shaved in a few weeks and I went to shave and wait what I had no hair on my legs and wait no hair in other areas that would be shaved or waxed! Woot woot chemo perk – waxing not necessary for a while. Sorry if I have embarrassed or shocked any of you – I promised to be honest and provide levity to this situation I find myself in. So, as I stood in the shower laughing hysterically, Millie came in and looked at me with her tilted head and then left thinking – yep she has finally lost it! I laughed so hard I had to hold on to the shower door handle in case I lost my footing and fell, “Greatest Moments in Chemo”

This week had another first where I experienced “Healing Touch”. Awesome experience with opening all your chakra points and ensuring the flow of energy through your body done with touch! The first session was Monday and then after a rough night on Friday and again on Saturday morning I had another session Saturday evening that made me feel so calm and grounded! Annette you are an angel and miracle worker! On Saturday afternoon Steve and I ventured uptown to see my new office and unpack my boxes and set up my desk – wow what a view I have from the beautiful Corporate Center in Charlotte on the 54th floor! I can’t wait till i am not immune compromised and can work from our new space! There is even a little nook for me to nap if I needed to – wink wink.

So the week brought loads of love, food, and visit including John & Peggy coming by to share stories from the JDRF Mission Summit that we were not able to make, stuffed shells from Rachel, Brownies from Laura, visit with Shirley and Dwan’s famous and fabulous pound cake, Coconut cake and visit from Jennifer. A visit with Dawn and great opportunity to hear all about her amazing mission trip to Haiti – and oh yes a little talk about her signing up for the 2018 JDRF Ride to Cure in Saratoga Springs! So excited to train with her and all our other riders this summer! Thank you Anne for the wonderful book and Suzie thank you for sending all the fun photos from years gone by and your wonderful inspirational cards. And Emily – thank you so much for making a girl who feels crappy still look pretty in her beautiful nightgown. Miss America’s cross sits on my bedside table where I see it every morning.

So we are ready to walk into the 4th and hopefully final round of chemo for this phase on Wednesday. We know what to expect and know I will be wiped out from it but it will be tolerable. I do hope that lock jaw side effect from the last time doesn’t happen again – that was a little scary. So here we go again, let’s do it and remember we will kick Lucifer’s ass! Lots of love to all my warriors – I am one very lucky girl!