Playing it safe

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Jan 10

So as most of you know, all to well, I am a risk taker, playing it safe has never been my MO. But when you are being infused with poison that is wracking havoc on your immune system you have to be smart and maybe think twice before you act. Take tonight, I planned to go to a JDRF Ride Interest Meeting that was being held at Vintner Wine Bar… well I realized that a bar, even if it is a nice bar, was probably one of the places I should think twice about going to unless of course I want to wear a mask – which trust me isn’t happening EVER! So I decided to stay home with Millie by my side and maybe take a long hot bath…ugh another moment where the risk adverse angel taps on my shoulder and says…ah maybe that isn’t such a good idea – since we know I am a klutz, slipping and falling isn’t out of the question or falling asleep in the tub isn’t out of the realm of reality either. So logic and safety win again – ugh cancer you are killing my mojo.

Another thing you know about me, or any women is that we are always watching our weight – and if you know my family you know it is definitely a main topic always. What did you have for lunch, oh should you be eating that, isn’t there something less fattening on the menu, oh maybe you should wear a longer top with those pants…I could go on and on, but ever since I was diagnosed the topic of weight has turned to, did you eat enough today, how much have you gained, oh have another cookie…on and on. I love my family and my mom but we definitely have a twisted relationship with food – evident when my niece came over in October and saw Millie, that would be our dog, and the first thing out of her mouth was “oh Millie you are looking a little chubby”. Seriously the DOG is now being scrutinized. I say all this cause I am now experiencing yet another cancer perk – no one cares what I eat, when I eat, just that I eat and keep up my strength. Between you and me I went into this overweight which the doctor loved so I do have room to loss but no one wants to loss this way I promise.

So now that I am a week out from treatment 2 I can say yes we tolerated it better, on Tuesday the Dr said he was really pleased with everything and is keeping the cocktail as is. Only two more treatments to go and we will be 1/3rd of the way through the whole process to eradicate Lucifer. Thank you all for your continued generosity, cards, visits and emails. We are holding on and we will get through this – Denise’s (and Keith too) goodie bag of tea and bath bombs and lotions and potions is just what the patient ordered – just sorry I can’t use that bath bomb tonight – but there is always tomorrow night. Here is to the greatest group of warriors out there – without you I would be lost in a sea of darkness – your light shines and guides me to the end goal a CURE.

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14 thoughts on “Playing it safe”

  2. What was the comment in college? That is going to look good on your hips??
    So glad this round better and you are playing it safe. Is round 3 next week?

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    1. OMG I yelled across the cafeteria to Lucy who was standing at the ice table getting ice cream “remember you have to get into that dress for Fancy Dress”. Horrible friend… the saying I think you are thinking about is “a minute in your mouth, an hour in you stomach and all the rest of your life on your hips and thighs”. Ugh playing it safe is so not me but you my level headed roommate who makes me think twice and check my taxes so I don’t claim a child when I don’t have one – what would I do without you! Round 3 is on the 17th! Love you sweet friend!

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      1. Love you too sweet friend. So proud of you and your bravery and humor. I am inspired to look at the positives on a daily basis due to you! Hugs to you and Steve!

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      2. What do you mean you don’t have one?? Don’t you claim Millie? We claim Sophie and take the child care credit for Barker Lounge.

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      3. Wait, I thought this was a story about you. It was about ME?! Eat, Eat, Eat Little Miss. Enjoy it all. Love you so so much.

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        1. LOL – I remember when you told me to tell my sister Suzy to eat whatever she wants when she was pregnant for the first time, saying this is the one time you can have whatever you want. I think I just figured out the other time is when you are going through chemo – cancer perk – LOL. Love you friend.

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  3. I love the conversation about eating and how Millie got looped into it. Is she getting a free pass now too, or will more emphasis shift to the shape of her figure. So good to see you tonight!

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  4. You are such an inspiration…and you should seriously consider writing a book after all of this is over and you eradicate Lucifer! We love you!

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    1. You are too kind – I am glad you are enjoying reading the blog and I will say it is helping me be a better writer – something I have been wanting to improve over the last few years!

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    1. You are so kind – my warriors are what keeps me going on those tough days so thank you for being one of those special ones that make this battle one I will win.

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  6. As hard as women are on ourselves with the shape of things, let’s all declare NOW to eat for good health! Feed your body all of the healthy things you can tolerate! Love from me, cathyjean

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