Cancer isn’t for sissies!

Well this actually sucks. Chemo takes no prisoners or shall I say chemo takes all prisoners. The last 60 hours have been brutal, I know I am strong and I know I can make it but there were moments where I honestly thought let’s just forget it. We had to cancel our trip to Louisville because I just didn’t have enough energy to make the plane ride.

I don’t know what we would do without family and friends.  We have not had a moment where we needed anything we have had friends come and bring food, gifts, flowers and visits not just for me but for Steve too. The other thing that has amazed me is Millie, she will not leave my side and follows me everywhere and sleeps next to me all day and night. She knows something is wrong and is channeling all her love to eradicate Lucifer!  I have never felt this kind of love in my life. I have a wonderful family who adores me but I have more than that, I have friends that will not let Lucifer get the best of me.

This morning, Sunday, I slept till about 730. Awoke a bit nauseous but took some drugs and then ventured to the shower.  Who would think getting into a shower would take it out of you but I was feeling a little weak and had a BRILLIANT idea!  I pulled my garden stool in there and was able to sit on that and wash my hair and shave my legs! It was kind of a treat and a bit decadent. I seriously think Chemo might be making me smarter- LOL.  But the realization was how we take the little things for granted and this morning they became such a treat and delight.  If only Steve had realized such small things were such a treat, he could have saved a ton of money on my Christmas gifts this year!

Both Steve and I are missing our family this Christmas but Steve will get to spend time with his Mom on Christmas which will be very special to her, and we will extend Christmas a few days longer when Beth and my Mom come back from Louisville on Wednesday. Our Framily all over Charlotte will not let us be alone or lonely – they are all truly amazing, we are truly blessed!  Merry Christmas and all the love and joy to each and everyone of you and yours.