Loved

Dec 19th

Wow this whole situation is so humbling. I have never felt so loved, cared for, nor have I ever had so much attention. Everyone and I mean everyone has gone the extra mile to make me feel loved and cherished!  What many of you don’t know is that I am an introvert playing an extrovert – ok so many of you are shaking your head now and saying right Missy get real. But seriously I work hard at being an extrovert and engaging with people and each of you has made it so much easier for me.

On Sunday when my friend Wyn came by with soup we had a good visit and I went outside with her to show her our new flaming light bulbs…well that ended up a bigger event then intended as I missed the bottom step and bit the dust. Seriously I fell down the stairs – good news nothing broken which is kind of amazing, but I showed Wyn the true klutz that I am – I laughed and after Wyn realized I was ok she laughed too. We knew it would make the blog.  Yes you heard that right…I fell down the flipping stairs.

Yesterday was a little tough – Many people have said you will go through a variety of emotions as you travel this curvy road. Yesterday was a day where I said “ok the novelty of this has worn off” and I got sad, confused and a wanted tons of answers. As I walked out of the CT scan with Steve I told him how I felt and all he had to do was take my hand and give it a squeeze and tell me it is ok to be bummed out but you can’t stay there. He held me and loved me like no other and pouf I was back to my fierce self.

Last night at dinner with my girls, Cathy, Astrid, Karen and Michelle we laughed and inspired each other and we walked out with our new purple braclets that say “Missy’s Mob”. “Be the Beast” – for years Cathy has referred to me as a beast cause of the training in so in my bike to find a cure for T1D. I plan to let that inner beast shine. So next time you see me just let me know if you want one we are wearing them till this journey ends. Thank you sweet Cathy for doing this for us!

Today we will shop for the wig, go to chemo school and spend time with my Mom. Tomorrow will be the first round of chemo and we will post an update Thursday. Remember as my grandmother used to say “no news is good news” so if you don’t hear anything don’t worry!

Please keep the prayers and protein coming!  You are all the engine that will keep this train on the right track.